I’ve spent the past couple of weeks mulling things over. My hip injury is ongoing, the days are getting shorter…winter is full of festivities but it brings back a lot of painful memories, evoking strong emotions in me. It’s not my favourite time of year.
Result of this? Falling flat on my face, back into behaviours and rituals that haven’t cast such a huge dark shadow on my life in quite some time. Since around this time last year, funnily enough. It’s so much easier to fall off the bandwagon than to get back on.
It needs to stop and it needs to stop NOW. No excuses, no waiting- because what am I waiting for? The clouds to lift? That would certainly make this easier. But sometimes it takes right actions for right thoughts to follow, and the pattern I am in right now certainly isn’t conducive to emotional wellbeing, never mind the physical aspect.
So, starting now.
I WILL make sure I am getting enough sleep
I WILL make sure that I am not over-exerting myself while my hip heals
I WILL make sure that I cover my nutritional bases, even if it’s repetitive for a while…back to basics for now
I WILL make some plans so that I have things to look forward to
I WILL make an effort to counteract the negative thoughts I have instead of letting them dominate my brain
I WILL push myself to write more, even if it isn’t sunshine and rainbows
I WILL dust off the list I made of things that I know work for me when I am feeling like this, and STOP doing the things I know make it worse (restricting, isolating, etc)
I WILL treat my body with respect and care, and hope that in turn, my mood lifts
I WILL use this year to create new and happier winter memories
What will YOU commit to for the final weeks of 2009