You probably will try many things before you find the exact formula that works for you. And it may be years before you realize the true significance of your discoveries. But in the meantime, you will be healing. You will be joining the ranks of the greatest adventurers, willing to endure immeasurable risk for the promise of linking arms with the immortal minority who have earned the right to count overcoming an eating disorder as amongst their greatest life accomplishments. (Beating Ana)
We are often so tempted - by Ed and others - to discount or even ignore those "in the meantime" moments.
Recovery is not accomplished in giant, dramatic, crowd-gathering leaps.
No, it isn't.
Recovery is accomplished when even Ed is so bored with the pace of our progress that he begins to let his attention wander, and that is when it happens.
We get it. We finally get just one tiny thing about ourselves that we didn't know before.
The next day, or week, or month, another little tiny firefly of insight flits by, and we gain one more tiny fragment of understanding, once again under Ed's radar.
Slowly but surely, as we make nearly undetectable movements towards healing, Ed is lulled into a false sense of security.
The fireworks come later, when he realizes he has lost us - possibly for good - simply because he wasn't paying attention.
What little ways have you made "in the meantime" moments less significant than they both need to be and deserve to be?