I had shocked myself last week with a relapse. I didn’t see it coming ahead of time because I wasn’t staying in the day. I wasn’t taking it One Day At A Time.
As harsh a reminder as a relapse is, it seems that it was a needed reminder. I’ve been thinking about my addiction recovery a lot since last week and one of the things that seems to have effected me the most is my lack of taking one day at a time.
When I was truly staying in the day I was focused on being the best person I could be throughout the day. Losing site of this affected not only my sobriety but also my mood and my self motivation.
I had fallen back into the addictive thinking pattern which had me preoccupied with the past and worrying about the future. Why was I worrying about the future? Because I wasn’t taking care of what I was supposed to be when I was supposed to be. Why was that? Because I wasn’t staying in the day and I wasn’t being the best person I could be one day at a time.
Keep moving forward has been one of my personal motto’s throughout my addiction recovery. The reason being is because I had finally grasped the concept of not dwelling on past mistakes and not letting every blow take me out completely. Something crappy would happen and I would feel bad for a moment and then say “ ok, that sucked but let’s keep moving forward “.
Fortunately for myself, I have once again adopted this motto. Ya, I screwed up with my relapse. I allowed myself to feel bad about it, I also allowed myself to look on the brighter side. My relapse shook me back into the reality of my addiction recovery. Lesson learned…Keep moving forward.
This last blurb has nothing to do with the rest of the post I just noticed that I have a tendency to use a lot of the typical “sayings” you hear in addiction recovery. I love them, don’t ask me why. I used to love all the typical office “sayings” when I was a nine to fiver also. You know those ones, “let’s touch base” “get all your ducks in a row” “let’s swing on this pitch” etc., etc.
I thought I would make a list of some of the recovery sayings:
Poor me, Poor me, Pour me another
One Day At A Time
First Things First
One Drink Is Too Many And A Thousand Is Not Enough
90 in 90
Let me end by saying that although I love using the addiction recovery lingo…I just don’t get the bumper stickers. You will never see me riding around with an AA/NA saying on my car, just won’t happen.