I am getting used to this idea that there is a spirit inside me and outside me. I am sensing that there is something great out there; I have begun to examine my spirituality. Regardless of how I have lived my life it has seen me through it and has not left me. Although I grew up Catholic and going to church I never knew God on my own.
Whenever I read the Bible in the past I felt like an idiot because I didn’t understand anything in it. I had some hurdles to get over before I could pick it up again. Surprisingly enough I am enjoying it and even learning some from it. It helps that I bought a Student Bible…I don’t care if I am forty-ish…If I can’t understand it, I am not going to read it, and this one I can understand! Anyway, I read mostly psalms.
Here is a verse I found recently that really resonated with my heart, and my experience of addiction recovery:
When I said, “My foot is slipping,” your unfailing love, LORD, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.
I could relate to the speaker feeling like whoa! I almost went down again, that was a slippery step, I can relate to that weird coincidental save that distracted me, or took me away from the situation. Anxiety and I go way back and when I feel that pressure, I want to be consoled, understood, cheered, that is totally what I want, please somebody make me laugh! This has affected my spirituality and recovery by helping me grow.