I have long encouraged women waiting for amnio results to get educated. I know from experience that, unless you are already holding your sweet baby, Down syndrome can become a monster in your mind.
What I didn't realize is that it can become that monster no matter how educated you are. I've been working full-time for the first time in years. Lately, I've worried about Eon, his future, and his delays more than I ever have.
In trying to figure out why, I realized that I haven't spent much time with him. When I walk in the door, he enthusiastically says, "Hiiiiii!" and then hugs me. He follows me upstairs where his baby sister is waiting to nurse. I sit on the bed to nurse her and he climbs up there, too. After hearing me chide him to be, "Gentle!" or, "Don't sit on her!" too many times, he wanders off to do his own thing. By the time I'm done nursing, I have another hundred things to do and Eon's busy with something else. Everyone else in the family comes to me when they want attention (repeatedly. :) Eon doesn't come back.
I finally realized that I need to seek him out to spend time with him. The more time I spend with him, the less worried I am about Down syndrome. Eon's just Eon...perfect the way he is. No monsters here.
What I didn't realize is that it can become that monster no matter how educated you are.
I've been working full-time for the first time in years. Lately, I've worried about Eon, his future, and his delays more than I ever have.
In trying to figure out why, I realized that I haven't spent much time with him. When I walk in the door, he enthusiastically says, "Hiiiiii!" and then hugs me. He follows me upstairs where his baby sister is waiting to nurse. I sit on the bed to nurse her and he climbs up there, too. After hearing me chide him to be, "Gentle!" or, "Don't sit on her!" too many times, he wanders off to do his own thing. By the time I'm done nursing, I have another hundred things to do and Eon's busy with something else.
Everyone else in the family comes to me when they want attention (repeatedly. :) Eon doesn't come back.
I finally realized that I need to seek him out to spend time with him. The more time I spend with him, the less worried I am about Down syndrome. Eon's just Eon...perfect the way he is. No monsters here.