Mental Block

I have a mental block. One that I haven't been able to work through yet....and it's been a good long time.



You see, we need someone to be at our house after school a couple of days a week. We need someone to provide care for Kellen occasionally on the weekends. We really need someone to help us out during the summer months so we can go to work and Kellen can have fun things to do.



It is amazing. It is even hard for me to type the words "need someone" and "provide care". I think I have it solidly in my mind that Kellen's family is supposed to provide his care. We aren't supposed to need other people. A sixteen year old should be gaining his independence and this feels like going backwards.



What's wrong with me? Why can't I work through this? I know that this way of thinking is not reality. We can't go on like this forever. It is really stressful for me to continually try to juggle things and race home from the city to beat the school bus. How can I change how I think and how I feel so that our lives can be better?