That's the way I feel right now. It's not really that I am unhappy, I just feel downright rotten. I ran out of my Celexa last week and we haven't been able to fill the prescription. (Darn no insurance junk again.) Since I have missed doses I just feel lost.
Not only that but I am having what I am calling brain zaps. Let me try to explain it to you. It feels like licking a 9 volt battery, but it's in my brain, and without pain. If I close my eyes too fast, or turn my head I get these jolts. Sometimes but not always it is accompanied by bouts of nausea or a Vertigo type feeling. Dizzy, icky, you know, the works.
I also can't think straight, and my body just feels like poo.
It happens more when I am anxious than anything, and yes I do have anxiety attacks. I have Clonzepam to take, and I can get this at Wal-mart with out insurance for 4.00, no big deal. But the thing with Clonzepam is that it makes me super sleepy, and I can't function. Not that I feel like I am functioning right anyways but you get the picture.
So yes, I feel like I have lost who I am. I need the prescription refilled, but there are no refills, and that will cause a trip to the Dr. Then I have to come up with the money for the pills. Since Andy's check was next to nothing due to car sales declining, and our house payment is due, that equals no moo-la, so I am just going to have to deal with everything.
Making sure Dakota has his meds, and that we have food on the table is much more important.
Right now I am struggling with the fact that I need a break and a two hour nap, and it's not coming. Poor Rhett probably thinks his name has been changed to "No" and "Don't Touch That."
To top it all off I had a horrible experience in the grocery store on Saturday night where some teenage girls said some awful things about Rhett. I don't want to go into details because I don't want to relive it again.
In all reality I am happy. We are happy. Things are going well, we just have some minor bumps and I am licking 9 volt batteries in my head. ;) No worries right?
Not only that but I am having what I am calling brain zaps. Let me try to explain it to you. It feels like licking a 9 volt battery, but it's in my brain, and without pain. If I close my eyes too fast, or turn my head I get these jolts. Sometimes but not always it is accompanied by bouts of nausea or a Vertigo type feeling. Dizzy, icky, you know, the works.
I also can't think straight, and my body just feels like poo.
It happens more when I am anxious than anything, and yes I do have anxiety attacks. I have Clonzepam to take, and I can get this at Wal-mart with out insurance for 4.00, no big deal. But the thing with Clonzepam is that it makes me super sleepy, and I can't function. Not that I feel like I am functioning right anyways but you get the picture.
So yes, I feel like I have lost who I am. I need the prescription refilled, but there are no refills, and that will cause a trip to the Dr. Then I have to come up with the money for the pills. Since Andy's check was next to nothing due to car sales declining, and our house payment is due, that equals no moo-la, so I am just going to have to deal with everything.
Making sure Dakota has his meds, and that we have food on the table is much more important.
Right now I am struggling with the fact that I need a break and a two hour nap, and it's not coming. Poor Rhett probably thinks his name has been changed to "No" and "Don't Touch That."
To top it all off I had a horrible experience in the grocery store on Saturday night where some teenage girls said some awful things about Rhett. I don't want to go into details because I don't want to relive it again.
In all reality I am happy. We are happy. Things are going well, we just have some minor bumps and I am licking 9 volt batteries in my head. ;) No worries right?