I did something really stupid this morning. Something that I know better than to do, but for some completely idiotic reason, did anyway. I ate pancakes. These weren’t pancakes made with coconut flour, or almond flour, or gluten free rice flour, but whole wheat flour. What the hell was I thinking??
The best that I can figure is that I wanted some extra carbs because I was feeling low on energy yesterday and I wanted to see if eating some carb heavy grains would give me the extra endurance I needed today. Why I picked the wheat instead of rice, sweet potatoes, or oats must have been due to a moment of temporary insanity, I really have no other way of explaining it.
Digestion-wise, I felt fine all day. No problems there. I didn’t notice anything different or strange until the middle of the afternoon, around 3pm, when I suddenly realized that I had gotten absolutely nothing accomplished all day because my brain could not properly focus. I was engulfed in massive brain fog, almost to the point of immobilizing any rational thoughts. While I am normally like a human dynamo, with more energy and ideas than anyone else in my office, today all I wanted to do was space out. I was perfectly comfortable and content with my mind off in the clouds. Whenever anyone came to me with a problem or task that required thought or focus, it made me angry and frustrated because it was so difficult to concentrate on anything.
And that’s when it hit me. OMG. It’s the wheat! I ate those damn pancakes for breakfast and look what they did to me! And then the next thing I thought was OMG, maybe this is why my friends and coworkers are always so amazed at how active I am and how I come up with so many creative ideas. They eat wheat all the time - bagels for breakfast, sandwiches or pizza for lunch, pasta for dinner, etc. They probably feel somewhat like this all the time and think it’s normal! They’re going through life in a wheat fog!
To try to clear my head, I took an hour off in the afternoon and went to the gym. I have been doing a high intensity weight workout once a week for the past three weeks. I keep track of my workouts in an app on my phone so I know how much weight I lifted and how many reps, etc. Each week I push myself to do just a little more than the week before. Today I had the hardest time only matching my workout from last week. In fact, on some exercises, I couldn’t. Not only was I having a hard time keeping my focus while I was doing my reps, but I was fatigued. Not only did my mind not want to work, but my body didn’t want to work either. I had to push myself through vast amounts of physical resistance. My body just did not want to move.
I stopped off at Whole Foods on the way back to the office and picked up a quart of fresh apple, celery, parsley juice. I drank half of it as I was sitting at my desk and finishing up for the day. I had beautiful but fleeting moments of comfort and clarity that came and went in what felt like an instant, but I was able to concentrate enough to get through 6 pages of financial paperwork that would have been impossible for me to tackle earlier in the day.
I came home and had chicken and vegetables for dinner with some yogurt and fruit for dessert. I feel like my head is somewhat starting to clear because I can sit here and type these sentences. I’m hoping that when I wake up tomorrow, I will be back to myself. Although, thinking about my old self, the self before I stopped eating grains with every meal, I can’t help but wonder how much of a fog I was in back then but didn’t even know it because it was all I had ever known! I really wish I knew then what I know now. Although the only reason I know now what I know is because I had gotten sick in 2004 with UC. If I had gotten sick 10 years before that, before I had access to an abundance of alternative health information on the internet, I would never have found the Specific Carbohydrate Diet or a cure for UC through diet and nutrition. I would have been on all kinds of meds, maybe even had surgery, and my life would most likely be nowhere near the normal that it is today. So I’m happy that everything happened the way that it did and at the time that it did. It’s also really scary to think of what my life would be like today if I had never gotten sick. I would most likely be in a wheat stupor all the time because that was such a huge portion of my diet. I’d be a mental and physical mess. I’m really looking forward to tomorrow. Hopefully, I will be back to wheat-free clarity.