After I finally recovered enough to head back home with my mom, we left the hospital. I was still struggling emotionally with all the changes that had happened. It was almost like I was morning the loss of something. I could see myself passing through the stages of grief which was incredibly odd. The doctors gave me pills to help me deal with things and they helped only a tiny bit.
The volleyball team
the surgeon up in Erie didn’t really know what was going on when he opened me up and my surgeon is lost as far as what he did to me. Other than that she thought I was doing incredibly well with all things considered. We talked about volleyball and settled that I could play with some restrictions. At this point I was still having some serious problems but I felt like there was still some hope. I felt like i wasn’t going to lose everything again. I couldn’t have any thing done to change the situation any time soon so I figured going back to school would be the best thing for me, and going back to school would let me play volleyball. So with only being out of the hospital for two weeks I went to our first practice! Now I’m not going to lie, coming back after everything I had gone through was one of the hardest things I’v done. It was hard for a lot of reasons but the two that stick out in my mind now were how incredibly weak I was and having the restrictions. My body just didn’t do what I wanted it to. We are three months into the season and it’s still hard everyday but the positives out weigh the negatives by enormous amounts. Today, I am stronger than I would have been if I hadn’t played. Playing pushed my body to come back faster.
I really want to thank my family for all the support they have given me through all of this. I would not have made it without my mom! She is the most amazing person I know and will ever know! There aren’t enough great words to say about Mike! I am by far the luckiest lady in the world to be marrying such an awesome guy! My Dad spent so many hours at the hospital with me, watching movies and just holding my hand! I can’t express how grateful I am to have Mikes family in my life. They are so supportive and helpful. I’m so glad they were able to come visit! My wolf pack girls, we can get through anything together! I love you all! Last but never least my best friend, my wife, Michelle! I
My wife and I!
could not ask for a better soul mate! You will never know how much you really helped me though all of this. I am a better, stronger person because of you! I love you!
The Wolf Pack
I know that this too shall pass and some day all of this will be behind me. So I’m going to keep doing what I do best and keep on going. I know that there is a light at the end of this tunnel and I’m going to find it! Besides, I have a freaking wedding to plan!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for reading guys, I hope that your all doing well and staying positive!!! You are all such a great support team!!!!