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Depression Chronicals Pt. 7

Posted Jan 26 2012 7:30am

 Some days are just tougher than others.  Today was a rough one for me.  Little things kept going wrong.  My Wacom kept messing up, the Crohn's was feeling neglected and it was just an all around blah day.

A blah-day wardrobe usually consists of anything soft and loose and comfy to lay around in.  Half of my wardrobe now consists of this type of clothing.  I am thinking it's not a good thing when your husband actually offers to take you clothes shopping because he thinks that you have somehow magically run out of clothes.
There was a while there when all I watched was Netflix.  I was into British murder mystery shows.  Netflix has a lot of them.  Some of them had over a hundred episodes and I watched them all.  I actually considered this an accomplishment.  It was proof I could stick to something until completed.
When I realized that the t.v. watching might have been draining my vital essences I switched to music.  I have learned to pick the right types of music to get me motivated, to calm me down or to do things that I really don't want to do but are extremely important.  Like shovel out clean the kitchen.  Now I am permanently attached to my iPod. 
Meals mainly consist of anything I can put in a bowl and if necessary I will take the extra step to put it in the microwave.  It's just easier that way.
And then comes the whole writing/creating/school thing.  I used to find a blank screen or a blank piece of paper exciting.  I couldn't wait to get started on it.  Now it's just intimidating.  However, I have found that if I just start typing or drawing, even if it's just a silly doodle, I can actually pick up some momentum and accomplish something.  Sometimes the something accomplished is a scary example of what never to do, but, hey! it's all a learning experience right?  Erasers and the backspace key are now my best friends.

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