Today is World Diabetes Day and the blogosphere is celebrating in a variety of ways - some with humor, some with anger, some with depression and others with resignation. Everyone, I think, has their own perception and perspective regarding diabetes.
As for my experiences, I don’t think they’re particularly unique. I’ve had good control, I’ve had bad control. I thought for a while that any control was out of my reach. I am back to good control and feeling better than I have in the past few years. I hate to admit it, but it was within my reach all the time.
Diabetes is confusing and it doesn’t always act the way you think it’s going to act. Your body doesn’t respond today the way it did yesterday and it’s frustrating. Yet, I don’t hate it. I’m not saying I like it - it’s just that it’s a part of my life. I fought acceptance. I tried to pretend I didn’t have to live any differently. I denied my behavior. I don’t swear that I won’t be in that place again but today, today I accept that this is who I am right here, right now.
“A person has three choices in life. You can swim against the tide and get exhausted, or you can tread water and let the tide sweep you away, or you can swim with the tide, and let it take you where it wants you to go.” Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider, Northern Exposure, Northern Lights, 1993
I don’t have to like reality but I have to accept it. Constant anger at something as intangible as a disease only increases my stress. Focusing on how unfair it is only hurts me, doesn’t do anything to help me cope with diabetes. There are difficulties, let’s never minimize that. On the other hand, we are tremendously fortunate to have the tools to, to a great extent, manage the disease and remain significantly healthier than those who came before us. I wonder if my generation or perhaps the next will be the first people with diabetes for whom serious complications are a rarity instead of a norm in our later years?