It's so strange to have a man around the house - even if it's only 2 days a week.
My mum's, well... boyfriend, Murray, is usually here every weekend now, taking mum out for dinner and to the movies and so forth. It's really kind of weird to walk into the lounge room and find mum curled up on the sofa with a guy, his arm around her shoulder. It almost makes me stop in my tracks and go wait a minute, what's wrong with this picture? LOL
I am getting much more comfortable around him now, so it's all going okay there.
And mum is having a great time, which is wonderful because she deserves it so much. Romantic restaurants, flowers... :) I'm really happy for her.
The smell of aftershave... men's jeans hanging off the bathroom door... suits... ties... all very unfamiliar and, in a sense, a little uncomfortable, BUT I'm becoming more and more okay about it all.
It brings back a lot of memories of my dad, and, obviously, the childhood feelings associated with that time of my life. But I am incredibly aware that Murray is completely different to dad - pretty much the opposite, actually. And I am managing to remain separate from those emotions, simply observing them as they come and go.
So much is changing around me right now. My mum, family relationships, home life... I am changing too, even in the way I relate to the hospital and my doctors, and especially myself.
So, lots of change. Not good or bad, I guess. It just is.
We had a BBQ today, and thankfully the rain held off for us. It was nice. We invited my mum's friend Lindee and her man around too. Lots of laughs. Good times. Great food. Everything a BBQ should be. Complete with barking dog in the background and a cat asleep on top of the pergola. :)
Am still keeping to myself alot, but trying to see it as just a natural cycle, and accept it as that. It will change again.
Now, I'm off to watch the rest of my DVD of the Melbourne Comedy Festival...
P.S. Did anyone see the story about Facebook on 60 minutes tonight?