Just a bit of swiss-cheese brain there. Forgot to blog. SHOCK! HORROR!
Ahem.
I went to my Karana support group today, and it was really helpful. We talked about defusing negative thoughts, labeling them, and the 'stories' we tell ourselves. All very interesting and has left me pondering lots.
It's a bit strange now that B runs it.... not in a bad way, just different, you know?
I'm becoming more aware of the differences in different kinds of relationships. Like for example, the difference when Lisa became a 'teacher' as opposed to a 'friend', if that makes sense, and how my relationship with B is different in the support group than when we're in individual therapy....
Just subtle differences, boundaries slightly shifted, etc. Not necessarily bad, either, just different. Sometimes different isn't a bad thing. Whoa, did I just say that?
It's interesting to observe.
Anyway, my low mood is still an issue, and zoning out a lot too. Sometimes it feels like it's easier to go to a numb place, rather than feel like crap all the time. Maybe it's a natural overwhelming-emotions-overflow safety-valve. Well, I guess you know what I mean.
I figure that as long as I can stay grounded when I'm driving, smoking, burning candles or incense - it'll be okay. Otherwise, right now, I'm not beating myself up for it, nor am I spending too much energy fighting it yet. My head needs a break. (This Mercury Retrograde is VERY welcome...)
xXx
Ahem.
I went to my Karana support group today, and it was really helpful. We talked about defusing negative thoughts, labeling them, and the 'stories' we tell ourselves. All very interesting and has left me pondering lots.
It's a bit strange now that B runs it.... not in a bad way, just different, you know?
I'm becoming more aware of the differences in different kinds of relationships. Like for example, the difference when Lisa became a 'teacher' as opposed to a 'friend', if that makes sense, and how my relationship with B is different in the support group than when we're in individual therapy....
Just subtle differences, boundaries slightly shifted, etc. Not necessarily bad, either, just different. Sometimes different isn't a bad thing. Whoa, did I just say that?
It's interesting to observe.
Anyway, my low mood is still an issue, and zoning out a lot too. Sometimes it feels like it's easier to go to a numb place, rather than feel like crap all the time. Maybe it's a natural overwhelming-emotions-overflow safety-valve. Well, I guess you know what I mean.
I figure that as long as I can stay grounded when I'm driving, smoking, burning candles or incense - it'll be okay. Otherwise, right now, I'm not beating myself up for it, nor am I spending too much energy fighting it yet. My head needs a break. (This Mercury Retrograde is VERY welcome...)
xXx