I was on holiday and feeling good after 7months on anti-depressants, so I decided it was time to stop. I weened myself of of them over the course of a week or so and finished taking them over a month ago. Since then I got back from holiday, and got a new job. I hate my job and the pressure was driving me crazy. I thought I was strong again and that I could handle the stress but I've had a really fast come down and have truely hit the bottom. The worst thing is I know when Im falling and I cant stop myself or speak up. Last time I managed to get help before I done anything stupid (althought I have attempted suicide in the past). For some reason I dont feel I can talk to anyone this time and my suicidal thoughts are consuming my life. I cant get them out of my mind. I know it was my fault for stopping my meds but now I don't know where to turn. Can anyone help me?