The time frame eludes me, all I can say is that it was quite a while ago that something integral to my well-being was taken away from me. The reasons are not important, nor will I explain them, but I've been going downhill slowly since then.
Thinking I could do it on my own was a mistake, but I cannot find a replacement. I learned quite a bit about mindfulness, meditation, and self-care; but I became dependent on the reinforcement of the teacher and have been unable to sustain these vital practices.
In my case, mental illness cannot be controlled by meds and therapy alone. I'm stumbling down a hill, and I can't seem to get my bearings back.