It has been awhile since I last wrote so figured I ought to pop in and say hello. For the last five months or so I have returned to the workforce and working basically full time hours. The job is nothing special but it is a starting point so that is what is important right now.
Since returning to work I no longer receive ODSP which is not a big deal except I lost my drug benefits which I now have to pay for as even though I appear to be healthy from the outside my brain still needs the chemical assistance to get through the day. Sucks though when half a check goes straight into the pharmacist hands. Thankfully Canada does have other programs such as Trillium which will help in the future
I forgot how judgmental people can be concerning people dealing with mental health issues or relying on government support. There is no way in hell I will tell my coworkers anything about my past, diagnosis or the journey I have been on over the last six years. I would not wish my mental illness on anybody but it would be nice for those who are so judgmental could get a taste of what I have gone through and what others have gone through.
Right now it is all about meeting the goals that I have set for myself and doing what I have to in order to ensure they are successful. It is interesting spending so long in the dark cloud of depression to actually start thinking about my future again and not how I am going to get through the day