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Chocolate Fudge – always chocolate fudge, what else? ICE -CREAM. ICE-CREAM.

Posted Nov 04 2009 10:06pm

 

My mood has held, anchored like a bright orange sea mark, bobbing up and down, never submerged, never rising above the salt wash.  It has held for a week or so.  Today I’m the more flat and lethargic than I have been.  I don’t want to make it into a deal, not yet, but when one feels even the potential for storm clouds to gather in ominous whispers above ones head, it tends to freak me out a little.  I’m not panicked; just watchful.

There’s some heaviness in me today.  I’ve struggled to get dressed and to *megaphone* STEP AWAY FROM THE BED.  I have given up on being productive today and decided to work within the confines of the lethargy.  What does this mean?

Well, for me, I’m thinking about

ICE -CREAM.

I’m contemplating a walk to the local Blockbuster, maybe get a DVD, but the DVD would be little more than a ruse to hide the fact that I have gone out to the DVD shop with the primary goal of coming away with a HUGE, fuck-off-it’s-mine, dirty, great big tub of

ICE-CREAM.

I don’t know if I can even be arsed getting off my arse to do that, but it’s certainly a candidate for what I might do.

Sometimes I think these are the times I should try to reach out to other people and be in company.  Maybe being around other people would take my mind off my mind.  I generally don’t make that phonecall or text though because a) I can’t decide what I want, b) I don’t feel sociable, even though I would like someone around, but then there’s the discomfort of feeling guilty over being unsociable and c) the effort factor of driving somewhere.  There’s a d) but I forgot what it was.

I should end this now (the post, I mean) because my brain is squidgy and slow.

Tomorrow I may be having a change of scenery – a last minute drive somewhere and maybe stay overnight in a place that’s not-here.  I will update if that happens.

Yesterday I did quite well.  I drove to my friend’s house to watch The Hangover, which was dead funny, had dinner there and then drove back. 

 

My mood has held, anchored like a bright orange sea mark, bobbing up and down, never submerged, never rising above the salt wash.  It has held for a week or so.  Today I’m the more flat and lethargic than I have been.  I don’t want to make it into a deal, not yet, but when one feels even the potential for storm clouds to gather in ominous whispers above ones head, it tends to freak me out a little.  I’m not panicked; just watchful.

There’s some heaviness in me today.  I’ve struggled to get dressed and to *megaphone* STEP AWAY FROM THE BED.  I have given up on being productive today and decided to work within the confines of the lethargy.  What does this mean?

Well, for me, I’m thinking about

ICE -CREAM.

I’m contemplating a walk to the local Blockbuster, maybe get a DVD, but the DVD would be little more than a ruse to hide the fact that I have gone out to the DVD shop with the primary goal of coming away with a HUGE, fuck-off-it’s-mine, dirty, great big tub of

ICE-CREAM.

I don’t know if I can even be arsed getting off my arse to do that, but it’s certainly a candidate for what I might do.

Sometimes I think these are the times I should try to reach out to other people and be in company.  Maybe being around other people would take my mind off my mind.  I generally don’t make that phonecall or text though because a) I can’t decide what I want, b) I don’t feel sociable, even though I would like someone around, but then there’s the discomfort of feeling guilty over being unsociable and c) the effort factor of driving somewhere.  There’s a d) but I forgot what it was.

I should end this now (the post, I mean) because my brain is squidgy and slow.

Tomorrow I may be having a change of scenery – a last minute drive somewhere and maybe stay overnight in a place that’s not-here.  I will update if that happens.

Yesterday I did quite well.  I drove to my friend’s house to watch The Hangover, which was dead funny, had dinner there and then drove back. 

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