Today I was hungry – really hungry. More hungry than I’ve been since before September 18.
Maybe because today I decided to call an IVF center and see what they have to say about having another baby. Although the OB said I should not get pregnant again, a second opinion wouldn’t hurt, would it? Surely there must be women out there getting pregnant and carrying close to term after uterine resection, right? Why not find out what the risks and probabilities are and go from there. Since I have no tubes, IVF would be the way to go.
I’m quite sure my husband will hear nothing of this. Perhaps this is just another phase of the grieving process and I should really not be pursing it. I’m trying to fill a void.
I’m still convinced we were meant to be a family of 5. I really want to try and make this happen.
Before the twins were born I had 2 very early miscarriages. I always believed that those stars came back to me as the kids. Perhaps that’s why I’m bent on having another – because I want my other star back with me on earth.