I have some friends on Facebook that are old coworkers. These are people I spent 40-50+ hours a week with prior to my health taking a dive and having to quit. I enjoy reading up on their lives and seeing what they are up to now.
But at the same time I hate seeing how they are progressing in their careers and life and I am sitting here, idle, waiting for my chance to excel again. And knowing that there is a chance that I may never work or accomplish my dreams ever again.
I miss the working life so much. Some days I want to delete these people from my friends list so I don't have to see the advancements they are making, or the babies they are having.
But why should I do that? And its not them, it really is ME. I need to just get over my life and remember that each person is different and each person lives life differently. This life is what is destined for me and no matter what, I can not change it. I can't change the fact that I will NEVER have a baby of my own. Or that I can't work full time right now because of my health. I could work, I could spend every free second I have making sure my health stays stable, and I could miss out on my family. Or I could continue on this path and have patience that one day I WILL go back to work, and that I WILL be amazing, and I WILL do all that I have always wanted to do.