Finding God and His Glory in The Way We See our Struggles
Posted Mar 12 2013 10:00am
“Then Moses said, ‘Now show me Your glory.’” (Exodus 33:18)
I sat reading a list of side effects from a medication the doctor put me on. It was warning of common side effects I could expect and also some rarer ones to be aware of and watch for.
Needless to say, I didn’t like much of any of them. It seems that sometimes side effects have caused more problems than the actual symptoms being treated.
Then it dawned on me–I was expecting these things to happen. I was on the lookout for them, interpreting each twinge or change in my body to be because of this medication. It also dawned on me that I had forgotten something.
I had forgotten to expect God.
The overall expectation was that the medication would help me–that it would ease the symptoms I was experiencing.
Why was my “over all expectation” not that of expecting good? Expecting God? It pains me when I realize how negative I have become–how I dwell on each new ache and pain and wonder where it will lead. I focus so much on this body of mine that I take my eyes off of the one I should be expecting: God.
It was as if things suddenly snapped into clarity for me. I was doing so much of this to myself as I mentally looked at myself through a microscope, waiting for the development of something new. I’ve lived with chronic illness for so long now, that it truly has become my new normal. I expect not to feel well. I expect to get tired easily. I expect things to get worse.
While that may indeed be what happens, I’m tired of it.
I’m tired of not having that joyous expectation in my heart that I once held. Granted life was simpler–but God has not changed. I have. I want to live in each moment, expecting God.
I want that sense of anticipation where I do not know exactly how God will work, but have the supreme confidence that He will.
I want to be looking at every turn for the ways God will show himself and His glory.
I want to … no, I choose to … expect God.
Prayer: Father God, Thank you for the many opportunities you give us each day to anticipate You and how You will choose to work in our lives. Let this life be a life of joyful anticipation as we wait for You and Your highest good. Amen and amen.
About the author
deni was forced into an early retirement from a field she loved where she worked with special needs children to encourage their emotional growth. It brings her joy to bring that same love of encouraging others as she shares lessons she has learned as she walks this path of living with chronic pain and illnesses. Believing that the only true way to deal with physical and emotional pain is to bring them to the feet of her Lord and Savior, her hope is that by sharing the insights she have gleaned while many physical challenges (Celiac Sprue, Atrial Fibrillation, Ankylosing Spondylitis and Porphyria to name a few) She lives in a well-loved rambling old house sharing it with four generations of family. You can find more of her writings at www.todaysencouragingwordonline.com She can be contacted through her website.
How do you begin each day? Are you expecting more of the “same old, same old,” or are you looking for the miraculous ways God can show His magnificence in your life today?
Need to be reminded of God’s glory? Of His power? Many people are finding God in the praises they sing to Him. “Show Me Your Glory” with Earnest Pugh may be the song that moves your heart (and your head) today. -Lisa