Devotion: When You Feel Like Your Illness Has Placed You In a Prison
Posted Mar 21 2012 10:00am
“The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners.” (Isaiah 61:1)
Imagine spending a day lying flat in bed in a completely dark room. You’ve pulled the shades to keep the sunlight from streaming through the window. You’re wearing sunglasses to keep out any light that may be coming in from underneath the door. And you’ve turned off the television and radio in order to protect yourself from noise. Lastly, you cover your ears with a pillow in order to muffle any sounds that might drift in from the next room.
That is how I have survived weeks at a time during my illness. Many times I’ve felt like a prisoner in my own home. And yet the truth in Isaiah is that Jesus came to release the prisoners from darkness. So how do I reconcile this truth to the reality of my situation?
I don’t have all of the answers but I do know this: I was lonely–but I was never alone. Jesus was with me. And furthermore he came to overcome the “powers of darkness.”
So those dark spiritual forces had no control over me. Bought and paid for and sealed with the Holy Spirit, I belonged to the Father.
Now when I look back on those days I “see” the spiritual realm in vivid detail. I see my Father holding me in His loving arms with the awesome light of His being shining all around. Outside, angel sentries posted strategically around our home warn satan and his evil-doers that they are not welcome here.
Yes I continue to suffer with chronic illness. My symptoms have not miraculously disappeared. But the next time I feel like I’m in a prison of pain and darkness. I have a choice to make. Will I look at life through my “spiritual eyes”?
Prayer: Holy Father: Thank you for your loving presence. Help me to look beyond my physical circumstances and see my life through spiritual eyes. Amen.
About the Author
Ramona Bracker is a retired nurse and lives in Iowa with her husband. She has three grown sons and one lovely daughter-in-law. She has lived with chronic illness for 25 years.