All who sail the sea of faith Find out before too long How quickly blue skies can grow dark And gentle winds grow strong Suddenly fear is like white water Pounding on the soul Still we sail on knowing That our Lord is in control Sometimes He calms the storm With a whispered peace be still He can settle any sea But it doesn't mean He will Sometimes He holds us close And lets the wind and waves go wild Sometimes He calms the storm And other times He calms His child He has a reason for each trial That we pass through in life And though we're shaken We cannot be pulled apart from Christ No matter how the driving rain beats down On those who hold to faith A heart of trust will always Be a quiet peaceful place
This week has again been VERY long and difficult. I had to make another trip to the ER Wednesday night due to excruciating back and abdominal pain, accompanied by nausea, vomiting and fever. This time the visit was very pleasant, as far as hospital visits are concerned, but all they could really determine was that whatever was going on was not 'life-threatening'. All the testing they did came back normal. This was a bit of a relief because the last 5 or 6 times I've been, it has been life-threatening and I've ended up staying a week to 10 days due to sepsis. It was also a bit frustrating because we still don't know what is going on.
At this point, I have appointments to see a couple different specialists for further evaluation and testing in hopes they can identify the problem. For now, I feel a tad bit better, thanks to a couple more medications the ER doc gave me to help with the pain. *sigh* I am so very tired of just throwing meds at things to cover them up. It would be nice to know WHAT is going on, WHY I am hurting, and QUIT masking it all! I feel like they are doing their best, but it is still frustrating!
Thanks so much for stopping by and for listening. I love this song. I KNOW I am in the midst of a great big storm, but I can see that the Lord has chosen to hold on tight to me and let 'the wind and the waves go wild'. He is also trying to calm me, I just have to let go and let Him.