Things seem to be on the up and up for me. This Valentines Day, I was lucky to be surrounded by people and things I love.
- Insurance approved my Interstim surgery.
I'm scheduled to get the temporary test pacemaker the week of spring break. And if that works, I'll get the permanent one the week after spring break. I'm a little worried about how my teachers will react to me having to miss three days of each class. Hopefully they'll understand. I honestly do believe it will make me a better student AND a better teacher. I wouldn't be in so much pain all the time (if it works).
- I'm out at the elementary schools about 15-20 hours a week. So basically, it's a part time job. Unpaid, whatever. The point is...I'm doing it. Along with a full course load of classes. I remember when I couldn't even hold down one measly little class. And look at me now! (I'm gettin' paper.)
- My kitty cat. In general. It's really nice to come home to a fuzzy little ball of warmth who's obsessed with me and thinks I'm awesome. Not to mention, all the children in my classes love hearing stories about Samson. He's becoming quite the little celebricat. They think it's especially hilarious when I tell them he's a little pudgy. Fat cats = funny stories.
- I made a B on my first math test! This is both good and bad. More on that another day.
- About half of last week hovered around a 5 on a pain scale of one to ten before it got worse. It was AWESOME.
- 4 of my classes are with mostly the same people. I love them. It's nice to study something I love with people I love. I think it's easy to get close with people when you're all doing what you're meant to be doing. Some hippie theory about being more comfortable with those around you because you're comfortable with what you're doing in life and confident in your choices. WHO KNOWS. I just know I'm glad I'm not the only one who still thinks fart jokes are funny.
And do you know what it reminds me of? High school healthcare class. Again, I think it's something about people you love + something you love. I miss y'all. I still laugh myself silly over some of the crap we got into in that class. Like when we had a "heart healthy" party...and we just brought foods that were the opposite of heart healthy. Bahaha. I'll make a healthcare post some other time.
It feels just like that. And do you know what I was then? Not sick. Basically, my education classes make me feel not sick. (Not completely, obviously. But hopefully you understand what I mean.)
- My boyfriend. We're not celebrating Valentine's Day until next weekend, and I'm really sad I didn't get to see him on Valentine's Day itself. Oh well. Our 3 year anniversary was on the 6th and he got me a used iPod touch. (Thanks, Keith!) It was devastating when my first iPod touch (named crunkpod, OBVS) died. I don't have a smart phone or anything, and I didn't think I'd ever own anything gadget-y again. Until February 6th! So thank you, chococat! That's his new nickname. Know why? Here's why.
Okay, I don't know. ANYWAY...
- I feel like things are going to continue to improve. I can't really say why. I just feel like they will. For the first time in a long time. I'm sure the Interstim is a big part of that, and I'm a little worried. Because everything I've read about it says that I need to be emotionally ready if it fails. I'll work on that. In the meantime, I am happy. Painful flare days still happen. But I have good things in my life to distract me sometimes.
- Darius Rucker's "This" has been on repeat in my head ALL DAY LONG. And here's why.
"I don't really know how I got here, but I'm sure glad that I did.
And it's crazy to think that one little thing could've changed all of it.
Maybe it didn't turn out like I planned.
Maybe that's why I'm such, such a lucky man. *
[...] I didn't understand it way back when.
But sitting here right now, it all makes perfect sense."
- Darius Rucker
* I am not a man. Obviously. I hope.
- Insurance approved my Interstim surgery.
I'm scheduled to get the temporary test pacemaker the week of spring break. And if that works, I'll get the permanent one the week after spring break. I'm a little worried about how my teachers will react to me having to miss three days of each class. Hopefully they'll understand. I honestly do believe it will make me a better student AND a better teacher. I wouldn't be in so much pain all the time (if it works).
- I'm out at the elementary schools about 15-20 hours a week. So basically, it's a part time job. Unpaid, whatever. The point is...I'm doing it. Along with a full course load of classes. I remember when I couldn't even hold down one measly little class. And look at me now! (I'm gettin' paper.)
- My kitty cat. In general. It's really nice to come home to a fuzzy little ball of warmth who's obsessed with me and thinks I'm awesome. Not to mention, all the children in my classes love hearing stories about Samson. He's becoming quite the little celebricat. They think it's especially hilarious when I tell them he's a little pudgy. Fat cats = funny stories.
- I made a B on my first math test! This is both good and bad. More on that another day.
- About half of last week hovered around a 5 on a pain scale of one to ten before it got worse. It was AWESOME.
- 4 of my classes are with mostly the same people. I love them. It's nice to study something I love with people I love. I think it's easy to get close with people when you're all doing what you're meant to be doing. Some hippie theory about being more comfortable with those around you because you're comfortable with what you're doing in life and confident in your choices. WHO KNOWS. I just know I'm glad I'm not the only one who still thinks fart jokes are funny.
And do you know what it reminds me of? High school healthcare class. Again, I think it's something about people you love + something you love. I miss y'all. I still laugh myself silly over some of the crap we got into in that class. Like when we had a "heart healthy" party...and we just brought foods that were the opposite of heart healthy. Bahaha. I'll make a healthcare post some other time.
It feels just like that. And do you know what I was then? Not sick. Basically, my education classes make me feel not sick. (Not completely, obviously. But hopefully you understand what I mean.)
- My boyfriend. We're not celebrating Valentine's Day until next weekend, and I'm really sad I didn't get to see him on Valentine's Day itself. Oh well. Our 3 year anniversary was on the 6th and he got me a used iPod touch. (Thanks, Keith!) It was devastating when my first iPod touch (named crunkpod, OBVS) died. I don't have a smart phone or anything, and I didn't think I'd ever own anything gadget-y again. Until February 6th! So thank you, chococat! That's his new nickname. Know why? Here's why.
Okay, I don't know. ANYWAY...
- I feel like things are going to continue to improve. I can't really say why. I just feel like they will. For the first time in a long time. I'm sure the Interstim is a big part of that, and I'm a little worried. Because everything I've read about it says that I need to be emotionally ready if it fails. I'll work on that. In the meantime, I am happy. Painful flare days still happen. But I have good things in my life to distract me sometimes.
- Darius Rucker's "This" has been on repeat in my head ALL DAY LONG. And here's why.
"I don't really know how I got here, but I'm sure glad that I did.
And it's crazy to think that one little thing could've changed all of it.
Maybe it didn't turn out like I planned.
Maybe that's why I'm such, such a lucky man. *
[...] I didn't understand it way back when.
But sitting here right now, it all makes perfect sense."
- Darius Rucker
* I am not a man. Obviously. I hope.