Ahhh...a vacation. Boy did I need one last year. I had been dealing with doctors and repeat complications of my condition, Trigeminal Neuralgia. No matter what I seemed to do, my pain was increasing. To make matters worse, I was starting to have memory and concentration problems (probably from my medications). I would get so frustrated at myself. I would have to leave multiple notes around the house to remind myself of simple tasks I needed to do, like return a call, be somewhere at a specific time, or take my medication. I did have a bit of respite as my family, along with some friends of ours, was going toKauaifor a week!
A break, a vacation…if only from my pain! We can take a vacation, and go 2,000 miles away, and yet our pain always seems to follow us! It was a tough vacation. I know, those words don’t seem to go together, do they. Yet, I was dealing with memory and concentration issues, which are much worse in an unfamiliar environment. My pain was worsening, and my daughter was misbehaving. During that week, I would wake early and go out onto our patio and read God’s Word. Psalm 139:7-10 was there, speaking directly to my heart:“Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.”I reflected on verse 9, which says, “If I settle on the far side of the sea,” and that was exactly what I was doing. I was trying to run from my pain and get as far away from it as possible. But it never left me, and neither did God! His hand was guiding me. His promise was sure. I can take comfort that God is right there to pick up, my pain and carry it for me because His burden is light, and His yoke is easy (Matthew 11:30).
He is there, always... No matter if we get a vacation in this lifetime or not we have the blessed assurance that one day we will feel no pain and be with our Savior forever. Amen!