Today, the intensity of stress in my dream woke me up. It was like I was transmitted from one space to other in a second. I noticed I was having tension pain in my neck and my body was frozen for a while. I also noticed sore throat. And I wasn’t breathing for a moment. *Gasp*
I was in my teenage days in the nightmare. It was a great relief that was just a bad dream.
I couldn’t physically move for about one hour. And my mind was occupied with the intense stress for another 2 or 3 hours.
Then, my focus shifted into other vivid dreams I’ve been having these days.
I’ve been going backwards of my life in my dreams recently. Things happened in the dreams are not exactly what happened in my life, but the feel and feelings stayed the same. They are nothing significant and I don’t know why I am going back to these times and seeing people I knew then.
Today, I realised these are the times when people in the dreams had crash on me or had feelings for me, but I didn’t respond or didn’t think about it. I liked some of them and enjoyed innocent flirting and their company. But it didn’t occur to me that I would be “item” with one of them. It was because I was in serious long-term relationship and I never thought about breaking up with him. Irony is that it was a bad relationship. Maybe, the universe was giving me opportunities to get out, but I didn’t take notice.
I’m wondering what message these dreams are giving me. It is probably nothing at all and it is just some strange coincidence. Maybe, I’m being punished for not appreciating innocent feelings when I was younger.
The realisation of theme in the dreams made me wonder if my life would have been different if I ended up with one of them.
It is just another “what if” story. I didn’t really know them well, so it is possible it may have ended up with another horrible relationship. I was young then. I didn’t have relationship role model and I had no idea what I would want from the relationship. I was more focused on proving myself that I could be successful with hard work, despite of being a woman, having no support from own family and being raised in poverty.
So much has changed since then, although I still carry the same virtue in life. I have matured a lot from own experiences. I can say I’m wiser now. I’ve achieved a few of my goals. And I’m sick and disabled now…
I realised that I took it granted of opportunity of meeting people.
Sometimes, I realise I had something really important in my life after I lose it… I hope these dreams are not warning me that I’m about to lose something special in my life again…
Today, the intensity of stress in my dream woke me up. It was like I was transmitted from one space to other in a second. I noticed I was having tension pain in my neck and my body was frozen for a while. I also noticed sore throat. And I wasn’t breathing for a moment. *Gasp*
I was in my teenage days in the nightmare. It was a great relief that was just a bad dream.
I couldn’t physically move for about one hour. And my mind was occupied with the intense stress for another 2 or 3 hours.
Then, my focus shifted into other vivid dreams I’ve been having these days.
I’ve been going backwards of my life in my dreams recently. Things happened in the dreams are not exactly what happened in my life, but the feel and feelings stayed the same. They are nothing significant and I don’t know why I am going back to these times and seeing people I knew then.
Today, I realised these are the times when people in the dreams had crash on me or had feelings for me, but I didn’t respond or didn’t think about it. I liked some of them and enjoyed innocent flirting and their company. But it didn’t occur to me that I would be “item” with one of them. It was because I was in serious long-term relationship and I never thought about breaking up with him. Irony is that it was a bad relationship. Maybe, the universe was giving me opportunities to get out, but I didn’t take notice.
I’m wondering what message these dreams are giving me. It is probably nothing at all and it is just some strange coincidence. Maybe, I’m being punished for not appreciating innocent feelings when I was younger.
The realisation of theme in the dreams made me wonder if my life would have been different if I ended up with one of them.
It is just another “what if” story. I didn’t really know them well, so it is possible it may have ended up with another horrible relationship. I was young then. I didn’t have relationship role model and I had no idea what I would want from the relationship. I was more focused on proving myself that I could be successful with hard work, despite of being a woman, having no support from own family and being raised in poverty.
So much has changed since then, although I still carry the same virtue in life. I have matured a lot from own experiences. I can say I’m wiser now. I’ve achieved a few of my goals. And I’m sick and disabled now…
I realised that I took it granted of opportunity of meeting people.
Sometimes, I realise I had something really important in my life after I lose it… I hope these dreams are not warning me that I’m about to lose something special in my life again…