I wanted to apologize up front. I never realized just how utterly devastated I would be over Dekker’s death. I’m really struggling. Writing – other than about my grief – is just too much. And to be honest, even writing about my grief is a challenge.
Yesterday was really rough. I awoke to Dekker crying and went to his crate, only to realize it was a box and Dekker wasn’t here anymore. I’m struggling just to make sure I eat and sleep an hour or two wherever I can, while still trying to move forward in this grieving process.
In addition, the grief is aggravating the Fibromyalgia and I’m guessing a crash is right around the corner.
Therefore, because I am having such a hard time, I have decided to take the rest of the month off from most of my responsibilities and posting, in order to allow myself to fully grieve Dekker’s death. I need to find a way to allow my heart to let go of Dekker and this incredible and over-whelming pain that has lodged itself in my heart and stomach.
Trying to focus on my grief and loss, and remember that I have the blog, is just a little too much at this moment in time.
I hope you will understand.
Feel free to continue leaving comments, and when I know there is a comment, I will answer back.
P.S. For those of you who are looking forward to reading the December issue of Life Skills Magazine, it is now out. You can find it here . I’m afraid I can’t send it via email because it is 107 pages this month! Congratulations to Renee , Sue , and Laurel for their wonderful articles and interviews.
Determined to continue forward (even if it means without my buddy)