The Trivedi retreat ended yesterday after 5 pm, and boy did it transform my state! My excitement is as palpable as champagne bubbles! And indeed, I even drank champagne yesterday, for Trivedi (known to those of us who love him as Guruji) brought out champagne for all of us to have several tiny sampler glasses. This was surely one of the highlights of the retreat for an alcohol-intolerant PWC like me, who can't even remember the last time I indulged in a few delicious tastes of that bubbling wine.
Here's what happened. Twenty bottles of cheap champagne were poured into a large glass vat. Volunteers filled 200 tiny cups and gave us each one as Guruji guided us to observe the size of the bubbles, the way the bubbles felt on tongue and palate, and the overall enjoyment of flavor and smells. Then he took 10 minutes to work with his mind to send 'instructions' to the champagne to transform. Samples were distributed again where we could all compare the blessed and the unblessed champagne. The blessed champagne had bubbles that were much smaller, abundant, and better distributed. The taste was also improved. He did the blessing a second time and we got a third cup. I even had a fourth cup when they had some extra.
He did this demonstration to help our minds overcome resistance. We are all so skeptical. Since we don't understand what he is doing and why it works, we tend to think that it can't really make a difference. After all, how powerful are thoughts?
Well I have experience with the power of negative thinking. I know how I can make myself depressed. I how can make myself tremble with fear. How I can make myself sleepless and restless, angry or self-pitying. All such emotional states have a toxic impact on my physical state. They make it worse, each in their own creative way.
Although I believe in the power of positive thinking, I've had less noticeable success in this area. If I'm feeling down, I'm not so good at changing my thought patterns and seeing immediate results in my physical state. It is easier to fall than to climb a mountain, easier to relapse than repair, easier to fall from grace than to regain it, easier to lose money than to recover my losses. That has been my life experience, and therefore it has become deeply ingrained in my thinking.
Yet I have 'talked myself' out of pain during dental procedures (without anesthesia/lildocaine) by diverting my thinking onto pleasant, happy memories. I have shifted my conscious awareness away from my surgery site so I never needed painkillers after my eye surgeries.
Trivedi makes me aware of my connection to the Divine. Since I believe God has unlimited power, and certainly the power to create miracles, all I really need to do is remain aware of that amazing, expansive connection.
Energy flows naturally. We see that with heat, with light, with electricity. It's in its nature. It is its nature. As the physicists tell us, both particle and wave co-exist in all matter. The Divine healing energy is always flowing but I often block its flow through me with my thoughts.
I won't bore you with all the details of the retreat (at least not today.) The important thing is that, by Sunday afternoon, when I closed my eyes to pray for what I wanted at the beginning of each blessing, I suddenly realized that I have already received EVERYTHING. My body and mind could take a little time to catch up -- the way Dr. Cheney described his body taking eight months to realize that it had the heart of an 18 year old and no longer needed to tamp things down. So I ended the retreat asking not for physical healing, but for things like more loving relationships, abundance, creativity, and peace of mind.
When my friend came home at lunch time, he said I now seemed just like he remembered me when we met some 28 years ago. That was the most awesome testimony I could ask for.
For those interested in being part of a Trivedi ME-CFS study, you'll hear from me soon.