I'd love to say that I haven't been blogging because I've been feeling so great that I've been out every day doing fun and amazing things. Unfortunately, the reality is I've mostly been snowed in off and on, including an ice storm where I lost power all day. You're probably thinking I could have been blogging every day, with maybe the exception of the power outage. But I forgot to mention one important detail... my computer broke 3 weeks ago, and my laptop was in the hands of Best Buy's Geek Squad. Ahhhhh!!!
Being computerless was okay at first. Maybe because it was the weekend and my husband was home. But after a few days, I was really starting to go crazy. I never realized how many times throughout the day I used my computer. Each day, there would be many moments of wanting to google something, email someone, go on Facebook, look for a recipe, check a knitting pattern, order vitamins, and even pay bills! Going cold turkey was tough. In a real pinch, I could still access the internet on my phone. However, my connection was slow and it would use up the battery. There were many days I would think about going to the library to use the computers there. With the constant snow storms and dealing with CFS, that never happened.
Well now I have my computer back and you think I'd be thrilled. Instead, I'm feeling quite overwhelmed. I don't know where to begin with blogging, getting caught up with emails, etc. I am so appreciate of computers. They do make my life so much easier. But they are also such a distraction and time sucker! Also, when I research CFS or health topics, it can cause me to get anxious. As much as I hate to admit this, I was much more productive without having a computer. I knit my heart out. I knit two hats, one for me and one for my husband and also started two other projects. I took more time in the day to practice yoga, meditate, write in my journal, and read.
Don't get me wrong, I'm beyond happy to have my computer back. In fact, I already used it today to get a recipe for my dinner, search for a knitting project on Ravelry, and catch up on Facebook. Truthfully, not having a computer made me feel even more lonely on days when my husband worked 16 hour days, which has been happening way too often lately. Overall, it was definitely an experience that will help me be more conscious of how I use my computer. I could think of a thousand things to google or search right now. But I hear my knitting needles calling my name. Time to log off and work on my lovely leaf scarf!