You actually interpreted your own dream without realizing it. You are indeed grieving the past of who you could be according to the worlds standards, but you are already an admirable person despite you diagnosis.
"I don?t know why but I had to crawl this square shape narrow tunnel to get to toilet"
You are in a process of transition, change (the tunnel). Heading to the toilet is to express emotion. In this case, its grief of having to live with the changes taking place in your life.
"I was so conscious how beautifully I could maneuver those legs while I was crawling in the tunnel. "
You are still very strong and will be able to get through this better than you think.
"In the room, I pick up the thing in my hip pocket which was giving me pain. It was the handed down engagement ring I have and I wore it on ring finger on my right hand."
Not sure if this is a true event, (You actually own this ring)? Who was it handed down from? Why does it cause you emotional pain? (This is symbolic of emotional pain). Do you and this person who gave you the ring, have things in common? What does this person symbolize to you? i.e. Admiration, respect perhaps?
"Then, I remembered I have another ring in my bag and pulled it out. It was a huge beautiful blue and green marble looking ring which I never saw in my real life. I wore it on ring finger on my left hand. The design was not particularly my style, but the fact it is a high quality piece and expensive made me feel special when I put it on. It was bit loose on me?"
hmmm this ring is on your wedding band hand. Have you been recently engaged to someone that you didn't like at first, but he's growing on you? I ask because I see the date of this dream is sept. of 08. By now you should be experiencing some of the outcome of this dream.....bottom line is, you are an awesome woman just the way you are. You are gifted, admired, respected and cared about by others. If you are single, there is a good change Mr right is in your life but you are unsure and have doubts. Don't doubt or beat yourself up. This dream indicates alot about you character as a person. You shine like a diamond and your heart is strong like marble.
I appologize for not getting to this sooner. I'm going to work on that.
, but you will come out of this situation a new person on the inside