My husband and I have been married for three and a half years, and we really want to start a family. My heart's desire is to have a baby. I'm 31, and I definitely feel in my heart that it's time. I've wanted to be a mother ever since I can remember. Having CFS makes me a little worried about having a baby. Is my body ready? Will I feel worse if I get pregnant? Can I handle raising a baby? Will I have enough energy?
There are no guarantees in life. I have to accept that I don't know what will happen. I could get worse, or I could feel the same. This is where trusting God comes in. Each day I pray and ask God for guidance, strength, and patience. I do believe He has placed the desire in my heart to be a mother. I have to trust that all things work out for the best and just let go of all my fears and worries.
Although I'm not pregnant yet, I'm open to the idea of getting pregnant. I'm trying to quiet all my worry thoughts and focus on what good could come from having a baby. My full focus right now is on my health. I officially quit subbing, after only working 4 days over 4 months. I hated it and the stress of not knowing how I was going to feel when I signed up for jobs was too much for me. Instead, I'm focusing on yoga, nutrition (I'm still sugar, dairy, and grain free!), stress management, and slowly building up my walking regimen. I just have to take it one day at a time, but I'm hoping one day soon to be a hot momma! (Make that a healthy, hot momma!)