We all headed to the zoo on Sunday, and the frost that lay on the ground was in sync with my mood. I brought my camera and all my lenses, I took pictures but there always seemed to be something missing. I would change each lens, snap a photo, then interchange to a different lens. Nothing seemed to be working, I stood back and realized it had nothing to do with the camera, but had everything to do with him, he was missing out of each and every great photo opportunity.
All the while he was getting pushed in the stroller, his sisters were running from one exhibit to the next. I really am starting to miss him not being able to walk or hold the hands of his sisters. I want him to be able to walk to where he wants to go, instead of us pushing him and leading him to where we want to go. I really felt my feelings were hopeless yesterday, everything I do to get him stronger just wasn't and isn't working. Photo after photo, made me miss his ability to walk and talk.
Yesterday I wanted him to take my hand and pull me to where he wanted to go, and guide me. I wanted to feel his little fingers entwined with mine. I wanted to hear his squeals of delight at the monkeys and their silly antics. Instead my fingers wrapped around the handle of the stroller, and I hated every second of it. I was only left with me taking his picture in the stroller like I usually do, and this completely sucked!!!
We all headed to the zoo on Sunday, and the frost that lay on the ground was in sync with my mood. I brought my camera and all my lenses, I took pictures but there always seemed to be something missing. I would change each lens, snap a photo, then interchange to a different lens. Nothing seemed to be working, I stood back and realized it had nothing to do with the camera, but had everything to do with him, he was missing out of each and every great photo opportunity.
All the while he was getting pushed in the stroller, his sisters were running from one exhibit to the next. I really am starting to miss him not being able to walk or hold the hands of his sisters. I want him to be able to walk to where he wants to go, instead of us pushing him and leading him to where we want to go. I really felt my feelings were hopeless yesterday, everything I do to get him stronger just wasn't and isn't working. Photo after photo, made me miss his ability to walk and talk.
Yesterday I wanted him to take my hand and pull me to where he wanted to go, and guide me. I wanted to feel his little fingers entwined with mine. I wanted to hear his squeals of delight at the monkeys and their silly antics. Instead my fingers wrapped around the handle of the stroller, and I hated every second of it. I was only left with me taking his picture in the stroller like I usually do, and this completely sucked!!!