In trying to decide what I should write about this New Year's Eve, I decided to look back to what I was writing about this time during the last two years. The differences between the two years were pretty eye opening -- even for me. And I lived it.
January 1st, 2008 I wrote about a recent trip to the zoo. The boys were both the picture of health. I was excited that Garrett didn't sleep through the zoo and that Gavin was officially over his fear of swings. The pictures show lots of smiles and a carefree day with the family. The posts throughout January revealed excitement about Garrett's first birthday, our 7th wedding anniversary, potty training for Gavin, etc. I'm sure life seemed chaotic at the time, but looking back on the pictures and posts - I just can't see why it would. Life was good.
December 31, 2008 I wrote from a hospital room at Children's Medical Center of Dallas because Gavin was very sick during his low point of a chemo cycle. After Gavin went off to sleep, I wrote a post about my feelings on the year. ( Click here to read it , if you are so inclined.) It was a scary time. While Gavin was responding well to his cancer treatment, the side effects were wreaking such havoc on him day in and day out. And while I had faith that God would see us through it no matter what -- living it out in the circumstances was difficult at times. I had high hopes for 2009 and what it would mean for Gavin's life, but couldn't begin to think as far ahead as ringing in 2010. I was living life day by day -- and sometimes that was too much. Life had changed drastically.
And this year we are in a vastly different place as well. We are ringing in the New Year outside of the walls of a hospital -- not planning life around a chemo cycle and the risks that come with a compromised immune system. And we're doing so with both children, knowing all too well that we are blessed to have the four of us under the same roof this year. Life has again changed drastically, but is so much better. Sure, we still have challenges to face. Survival comes at a price. But, Gavin is alive and both of my boys are seemingly well-adjusted children. And I am so very, very grateful.
Thank you for checking in on us. You all are so good to our family. I wish you a Happy (Healthy) New Year!