Mortal sin?

Do you think suicide is a straight path to Hell?



Or could it be possible that God, in infinite wisdom seeing into our very being, understands the desperation in which a person may end things on their own timetable instead of that of God's? Would he take us into his arms, forgiving and accepting us to stay with him forever, knowing how impossible a task it was to just sit and breathe through non-stop pain, trying to get through the endless day?



Is it really suicide when someone living in a cloud of confusion caused by relentless pain takes too much medication, not being able to remember their last dose of meds? Does God understand taking one extra dose that can be the very end was simply an act filled with the one remaining sliver of hope of getting even a minuscule amount of pain relief?



Will God accept us with our mortal mistake and let us live and love him at his side forever? Or will we be banished to Hell?



Would that Hell be any worse than the pain we have here?