This is supposed to be a blog about my "cancer experience" not proof of how insane I am. My moods seem to be shifting so dramatically these days! It is so hard to think rationally when I am overcome by the sadness, as I was when I wrote earlier. I don't mean to come across as a spoiled person. The fact is that I am very blessed to have a family that cares for me (and makes space for me) as mine does! I love them very much.
I guess I can't put a neat little bow on everything. Even though I feel much more stable, emotionally now, than I did earlier, there is truth to the feelings that were being expressed. It is not just this especially challenging portion of the path that I am currently encountering...although that is a huge part of it. It is as if every pain or sense of loss that I have ever felt is being encountered. It could very well be the Prednisone. But when I feel sad these days....I feel really sad.....like I've lost my best friend or something. I cry like a baby.
But...after a while...it lifts. And I am still here. Experiencing life.
My moods seem to be shifting so dramatically these days!
It is so hard to think rationally when I am overcome by the sadness, as I was when I wrote earlier. I don't mean to come across as a spoiled person. The fact is that I am very blessed to have a family that cares for me (and makes space for me) as mine does! I love them very much.
I guess I can't put a neat little bow on everything. Even though I feel much more stable, emotionally now, than I did earlier, there is truth to the feelings that were being expressed. It is not just this especially challenging portion of the path that I am currently encountering...although that is a huge part of it. It is as if every pain or sense of loss that I have ever felt is being encountered. It could very well be the Prednisone. But when I feel sad these days....I feel really sad.....like I've lost my best friend or something. I cry like a baby.
But...after a while...it lifts. And I am still here. Experiencing life.