Pressing on & pulling through. That’s what we do… we’re Thompsons!
Posted Oct 15 2009 10:04pm
So, as many of you know (but don’t fully understand… & I completely get it… all of the medical hoopla is just overwhelming), Keely has started her 3rd phase of treatment… finally (we were pushed back for 2 weeks due to low counts). I won’t go over it all again, but she had an allergic reaction during her last phase & is now on an experimental drug, which is “the unknown” & also puts us in clinic 4 days a week. I don’t ever want to be a complainer, nor do I want to speak negative things into her life, but I do however, want to document exactly what’s going on, since she will be looking back on this journey via this blog someday.
She is into her 3rd week of a 10 week phase. She gets a shot every other day along with her normally scheduled chemo for this phase. This one has been hard. It’s been since the very first month since she has thrown up or had any major issues, but they have all reared their ugly head through this new drug. She vomits every night after each shot… & they haven’t found an anti-nausea that works for her. It’s terrible & completely heart wrenching to see my 4 yr old daughter so sick. She is having bad reactions to the drug in the form of feeling like she is going to jump out of her body from the inside, she has terrible mood swings, & aggression issues. Brian & I have been strong through this, trying to maintain some discipline while also remembering that some of these things she has no control over. We look at each other at the end of each week & say… “one down! pressing on….”. My Pastor said to me the other day, “remember the joy that the Lord has set before you”. wow! I was having such a hard day & suddenly I took my focus off of “this moment” & directed it to the blessings & joy that this family is going to receive once this test is passed. It almost gives me chills! We KNOW she is healed… that isn’t even questionable in our minds. Our feet are so planted in that knowledge that I don’t think anything could uproot us. It’s just getting through the test. Laura Tapp once said something pretty profound to me… she said, “everyone always talks about the testimony, but rarely the test.” So true. You hear about the end, without understanding what it took to get there.
I did get to talk to her doctor about exactly how she is doing in terms of how well she is responding to the chemo & her long term prognosis. Her answer was just so great. Even though Keely is a high risk leukemia patient (which makes her more susceptible to relapse), Dr. Blatt said that she is responding incredibly well to the chemo, which means that she will most likely not ever relapse. She is doing phenomenal! She isn’t feeling that way, but she’s beating this thing! The doctor’s & nurses tell us that a child has a better prognosis depending on how the parents respond to the disease. THE PARENTS!… not the child. Because of OUR faith, she is healed! Because we speak positive words over her, she sees her situation the way we do. She shines, because we shine. She believes she is healed by the stripes of Jesus, because we do! Her only way to interpret her situation is through our reaction to it. So we will continue to walk into clinic with a smile, praying to bless someone hurting on that day, we will continue to live as normally & as positive as we can, we will continue to believe in the power of our God! What is there to be negative about? Yes it’s a tough journey, but there is the other side… & my God it’s beautiful. Praise Him for this day!
We speak this over her nightly & during every dose of chemo: Isaiah 43:1-3 (& I’m paraphrasing to substitute Keely & her circumstance into His Word. Remember, the bible is our love letter from God… we HAVE to include ourselves!) “But now, this is what the Lord says- he who created you, O Jacob (Keely), he who formed you, O Israel (Keely): “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters (of chemo), I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers (of chemo), they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire (of chemo), you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.”
On a much, much lighter note, Finley had a 4 month check up last week & the news was just amazing. He is doing so well that they have taken him off of the “preemie” growth chart & put him right in with the full term babies. Granted, he is only in the 20th – 30th percentile for everything (weight, height, etc.), that’s pretty friggin awesome! God really knew! He knew Finley needed to come early, He knew what we were about to face, & He knew that He would make sure Finley soared! How can I NOT trust Him in everything?
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