I have been spending quite a bit of time recently listening to meditation techniques here at that help me deal with my cancer in a positive, rational way. I think that one some level it empowers me to have *some* control over what is going on in my body and with my treatments. I feel good during, feel even better after my quiet time is over. I never get my own quiet, self-centered time, so for 20 minutes a day I disappear into the bedroom, throw on my iPod and listen to one of the many recordings I have. They all have their differing approaches and benefits as you may have read below.
But when I sit and meditate on my own with nothing in my ears, when I focus on my breathing, sitting Lotus style, is when I have my difficulty. I need some direction on how perform better Zazen meditation because it *is* difficult for me to even sit there for 5 minutes with quiet and my own thoughts. Even though it is perhaps the most refreshing and enlightening of all the methods I choose to do, it feels as if I am doing something wrong.
So, being that we live 5 miles from an incredible Buddhist Center in Newmarket, NH , I decided I would sign up for a 6 week retreat (only one night a week from June 2 through July 7) to be able to sit in a room with other people and meditate for two hours each Wednesday night. It’ll be difficult but a great crash course in Buddhist meditation that will only help me when I am on my own. Who knows? If it’s really enjoyable, I will keep going back for more programs. It is too close to not take advantage of.
I look forward to clearing my mind, showing thankfulness for all in my life, including my disease, which I no longer hate, by the way. Strange, but yes, I no longer expend energy hating these rogue cells. My approach is to calm them, accept them, and pacify them by finding a balance in my body, my Pitta body , as I recently discovered I have.
Anyway, I can’t help but think this is all good for me and for the disease in the long run.
I decided that I will no longer stick my head in the sand, but will join others in my journey through meditation, through a cancer support group that I enrolled in at Exeter Hospital , and through more updates on this site.
I have finally embraced my cancer . Sounds strange because a year ago I wanted it out of my skin, I wanted out of my own skin. Now, I am ok with it there as long as it behaves and we get along. And so far, it is behaving and going away. I can’t complain about anything so far. Life has been very good to me on this journey. I have changed, the people in my life have changed, and I have a new found love of life and everything that each day throws my way.
I have been spending quite a bit of time recently listening to meditation techniques here at that help me deal with my cancer in a positive, rational way. I think that one some level it empowers me to have *some* control over what is going on in my body and with my treatments. I feel good during, feel even better after my quiet time is over. I never get my own quiet, self-centered time, so for 20 minutes a day I disappear into the bedroom, throw on my iPod and listen to one of the many recordings I have. They all have their differing approaches and benefits as you may have read below.
But when I sit and meditate on my own with nothing in my ears, when I focus on my breathing, sitting Lotus style, is when I have my difficulty. I need some direction on how perform better Zazen meditation because it *is* difficult for me to even sit there for 5 minutes with quiet and my own thoughts. Even though it is perhaps the most refreshing and enlightening of all the methods I choose to do, it feels as if I am doing something wrong.
So, being that we live 5 miles from an incredible Buddhist Center in Newmarket, NH , I decided I would sign up for a 6 week retreat (only one night a week from June 2 through July 7) to be able to sit in a room with other people and meditate for two hours each Wednesday night. It’ll be difficult but a great crash course in Buddhist meditation that will only help me when I am on my own. Who knows? If it’s really enjoyable, I will keep going back for more programs. It is too close to not take advantage of.
I look forward to clearing my mind, showing thankfulness for all in my life, including my disease, which I no longer hate, by the way. Strange, but yes, I no longer expend energy hating these rogue cells. My approach is to calm them, accept them, and pacify them by finding a balance in my body, my Pitta body , as I recently discovered I have.
Anyway, I can’t help but think this is all good for me and for the disease in the long run.
I decided that I will no longer stick my head in the sand, but will join others in my journey through meditation, through a cancer support group that I enrolled in at Exeter Hospital , and through more updates on this site.
I have finally embraced my cancer . Sounds strange because a year ago I wanted it out of my skin, I wanted out of my own skin. Now, I am ok with it there as long as it behaves and we get along. And so far, it is behaving and going away. I can’t complain about anything so far. Life has been very good to me on this journey. I have changed, the people in my life have changed, and I have a new found love of life and everything that each day throws my way.