Last month I posted my mantra : It might suck right now, but once it is over you will never have to do it again.
I really need to start listening to myself.
Over the past few weeks (and maybe last two months) I've been subtly freaking out about the end of cancer treatment. I know I should be celebrating but the end of Temodar makes anxious.
I think, "What will happen to me now that this is over? Will the tumor just grow back? Then what?" If you've been reading this blog I am sure you have picked up on this theme.
With this in mind I decided to call the oncology social worker at Kaiser (the one I like, not the stupid one from 2009). I told her how I was feeling and she validated my feelings and explained that anxiety about the transition from the "patient/treatment world" back into the "new normal" world is completely normal. Almost all patients experience this.
If I listened to my own advice I'd know that this transition phase is going to suck, but I will never have to do it again.
Whew! At least I'm not THAT big of a goose. But I am definitely a goose.
That's what I get for leaving my blog open and unattended. Brett finished the post for me (see highlighted section). And guess what? He's right.