I think it not inappropriate to share a recent event, vision, and why I am pretty certain that I believe in angels. I was in my blue Kia Rio on the way to Ear-Training class yesterday morning when I was slammed into from behind by a Chevy Tahoe (ironically, a music education at FAMU. I won't disclose his name...but further irony.) What happened immediately after is relatively a blur, but I remember the back windshield shattering, that awful clanging metal breaking sound along with a dramatic jerk of the car, me yelling in fear and wondering what was going to happen next. I didn't know where I was going, I lost control of the car. What happened is that my little Kia ended up jumping the grassy median next to it and landing with its face buried in a small tree. I was grateful to observe nothing explode. With shaky hands, I turned off the engine and got out of the car. Which now looked like this
My saving grace is that I landed in that awkward position, not in the opposite lane of traffic, or slammed into the car in front of me. My other saving grace is the quick action on part of one of my real life angels, Frank, who showed up with his truck and helping hands as soon as I called him and said I'd been in an accident. What he has done for me over the past couple of days has been immensely helpful and kind. I am very grateful for his generous assistance.
I am also very grateful to God and my other angels. The night of May 17, 2011, the night before this accident happened, I had a dream (that was more like a visionary experience in which I was a conscious participant) of being visited with by what I can only guess was an angel, spirit guide, or some kind of higher divine being. Like another dream vision I have had of a similar kind and quality, the angel resembled a beautiful man, not a person I know in real life, but someone I have never met before but seems deeply familiar yet other-worldly. This angel-man had dark brown hair and eyes and was incredibly attractive to me for reasons beyond his appearance. His warm heart and inner charisma shone through his eyes. He was sitting next to me in bed and we were conversing. He laughed at me when I tried to come on to him. It was almost like his laugh was saying, "of course you would want to do that because I am such an intensely beautiful being who knows you intimately in a spiritual way, but of course you can't do that" because....well it was almost like he and I were relatives or something. The moment was easily passed beyond because it seemed obvious and clear why that was not allowed when he laughed like he did at me, in a totally non-judgmental, affectionate and understanding way. It was like he knew me as well as I knew myself, if not better. I knew our time to visit was limited and I was asking him questions about life, partly out of genuine curiosity but also partly just because I wanted him to linger with me in this vision longer. His presence was quite comforting. It was like being with a God-like being for whom EVERYTHING was OKAY. The universe was okay in his presence. Death was okay in his presence. Nothing felt wrong or scary. I felt completely safe and at ease.
Anyway, this dream vision was definitely a numinous one, and one in which I was aware I was dreaming/visioning. I felt like I was really there, with that angelic being. However, I didn't remember the dream until after the accident, when I was watching a Nova documentary I had picked out on Netflix about dreams. The memory came flooding back to me and made me smile, remembering my angel chuckling at me with affectionate knowing. Later, when thinking about the accident and feeling such gratitude for the outcome and how the car seemed to steer itself to what was likely the best possible scenario- safely out of traffic and into a small enough tree-, I realized the impeccable timing of that numinous dream/vision. It is almost as if the angel came to see me the night before as a sign that the next morning something dangerous would happen, which would wreck my car, but that my life would again be spared. Perhaps the angel remained with me through the morning and was with me in the car.
There is no way for me, as a human, limited by my senses as they are, to know exactly what took place on the other planes I cannot see. But it strikes me as a beautiful coincidence that I was given such a comforting, enjoyable visit by a being who seemed to me absolutely divine, the night before the accident happened. It makes me feel as though there is a plan that is beyond me and that ultimately God is in charge of my fate. There is more that He would like for me to experience, learn, be, and do. I look forward to watching His plan unfold. With my loved ones, my real life angels, at my side.