The subject title refers to a poem I am working with by Hildegard von Bingen. And I just heard a song on the radio with the same concept! At least something circular/cyclical circling. Cool! I just got back from a long walk in the woods. I saw a snake! It was beautiful out there. I was thinking about my dream/s and the possibilities.
Partly I think the mind just throws fears out there to shake things up a bit. Perhaps to get you in touch with something deeper than the day to day routine. Like life does sometimes. I mean, when I remember how I felt during the shock of having cancer, it was an especially alive time...partly because it was scary. Does that make any sense? Emotions like fear and dealing with the unexpected has a way of shaking you out of blind routine.
I don't wish for another cancer experience, however I would like to find ways to wake up to the moment- and I think dreams are one way of doing that, ironically enough. You can experience something without having to actually experience it.
When I think about that dream I wrote about last entry, it really wasn't necessarily the most awful thing ever. I mean there was a sweet part about it and that is that I was holding the person's hand. It is not like I ran away scared; I met the situation with love and tried to be open to it. So it is not all bad. You know?