Today, May 6th was a lovely Spring day in NYC as the All About N.E.D. Team again participated in the Revlon Run Walk for Women's Cancers. It was a tremendous turn out with an estimated 40,000 people. Here's a pic of our team today! 
(that's me and my hubbie on the bottom)
This years walk, was strange. I kept feeling as if my team was not in the mood to be there and I began to think were they only doing this for me. My perspective on this event is a way to give something back and to be a part of a community fighting a single cause. But I never thought what the motivation of my friends and family is. My husband and I began to discuss it on our way home, and he agreed that my supports probably view this event as a way to show support for me and perhaps they don't want to revisit the time when I was sick. He said to me "you and I will live with your illness for the rest of our lives, but to others they are able to distance themselves from it and put it behind them because you are well (knock on wood) and maybe they don't want to be reminded of it." When we walked for the first time two years ago, I was just diagnosed a few months prior and was in the middle of chemo. Last year, at the walk I had just been declared in remission a few months prior and I felt as if everyone was there to celebrate that. But today, the vibe was different - there was not as much enthusiasm on my part or on theirs and I can't help but wonder why. But you know what, whatever their motivation was or is doesn't matter - the important thing is that they were there.
I was a bit tense myself, and it could be that this event serves as such a HUGE reminder of how devastating cancer is. I walked along, reading the "tribute signs" that the walkers had on their backs stating all those who have been lost and those who are surviving. And it was such a reminder of what I have been through and how I feel like I am walking on egg shells half the time, waiting for the bomb to drop that the Cancer is back. I guess I can't expect myself to navigate such an event with ease. It would be unrealistic to expect it not to have an impact on me.
But, it is really a positive fun experience and it always makes me want to do more. Some cute team names that I saw that I thought you would appreciate were "Get Ovary It" and "Babes for Boobs." It's so great to see people coming together to try to make the world a better place.
Today, May 6th was a lovely Spring day in NYC as the All About N.E.D. Team again participated in the Revlon Run Walk for Women's Cancers. It was a tremendous turn out with an estimated 40,000 people. Here's a pic of our team today!
(that's me and my hubbie on the bottom)
This years walk, was strange. I kept feeling as if my team was not in the mood to be there and I began to think were they only doing this for me. My perspective on this event is a way to give something back and to be a part of a community fighting a single cause. But I never thought what the motivation of my friends and family is. My husband and I began to discuss it on our way home, and he agreed that my supports probably view this event as a way to show support for me and perhaps they don't want to revisit the time when I was sick. He said to me "you and I will live with your illness for the rest of our lives, but to others they are able to distance themselves from it and put it behind them because you are well (knock on wood) and maybe they don't want to be reminded of it." When we walked for the first time two years ago, I was just diagnosed a few months prior and was in the middle of chemo. Last year, at the walk I had just been declared in remission a few months prior and I felt as if everyone was there to celebrate that. But today, the vibe was different - there was not as much enthusiasm on my part or on theirs and I can't help but wonder why. But you know what, whatever their motivation was or is doesn't matter - the important thing is that they were there.
I was a bit tense myself, and it could be that this event serves as such a HUGE reminder of how devastating cancer is. I walked along, reading the "tribute signs" that the walkers had on their backs stating all those who have been lost and those who are surviving. And it was such a reminder of what I have been through and how I feel like I am walking on egg shells half the time, waiting for the bomb to drop that the Cancer is back. I guess I can't expect myself to navigate such an event with ease. It would be unrealistic to expect it not to have an impact on me.
But, it is really a positive fun experience and it always makes me want to do more. Some cute team names that I saw that I thought you would appreciate were "Get Ovary It" and "Babes for Boobs." It's so great to see people coming together to try to make the world a better place.