It is 3:53am and I am wide awake. I feel like sh^t. My cold/bronchitis, flu, sinus infection, bubonic plague or whatever the f*ck it is really getting on my nerves. I have been running a fever since around 3:30 today and while the Tylenol helps a little it is not making a big difference. To top it all off, today the tumors in my abdomen decided to let me know they are still there and it feels like a game of ping pong is going on down there. Needless to say, I am in a lot of pain. I came home from acupuncture and took a hydro-codeine, muscle relaxer and two Tylenol. Pretty soon I was exhausted and pretty loopy as a couple people can attest to since I answered the phone when they called.
I have the chills then the sweats. Covers on, covers off - hat on, hat off. I am sure you can understand how it feels and I am not the only one that feels this way right now but I need an outlet to vent. I tried to call a friend around 10:30 to see if they could come stay with me, but all I got was a busy signal.
One of the few times I truly hate living alone is when you are sick and you need something like some juice or medicine, more tissues and you just don't have the energy to get out of bed. Since we are not wizards like Harry Potty, we have a choice to lay there and suffer or brave the cold, body aches, etc to get up to get what we need. When I am awake in the middle of the night I often wish there was one person I could call no matter what time to talk to them about how I feel. I had a CT scan on my sinuses and my chest today. Hopefully the results will show why I feel as though my brain is disintegrating and coming down my nose and through like lave. I go back to the doctor on Monday. This weekend I am staying in bed and trying to get better, because of after feeling like this for over 4 weeks I am not sure how much more I can take.