Its been a while since I posted on my tulips blog, well im back! I had to really collect myself for a couple of days and realy reflect on my wife not being here. Its still a big shock to us that our Angel is not here. The weird thing is that we can see her here at home! My daughter sees her all the time walking and has wings so it really feels like she is here. I see her but its transparent when I do, who cares right as long as shes here. I miss her guidence so much and her smell and that smile. I am not scared to die now cause I know shes waiting for me but I have to get our kids set. Enough about death! Its time to heal! Till next time!