Fresh Starts..or how I plan to make the perfect flaky pie crust......
Posted Jan 04 2012 12:00am
Now that Christmas is officially over, what are we supposed to watch on TV..?. All through December the "feel good" movies, from White Christmas, Polar Express, Sound of Music, Holiday Inn and many more were on daily ! I was flipping channels tonight and there was nothing worthwhile. Though I did watch Again, Eat Pray Love.....Somehow I can see myself in that situation. I guess to some extent I was. I walked away from a bad marriage, traveled through Africa, met someone, had a child with him. Coincidentally my son is 19 years old today!! He is a young man....He is going to be a good man for a good woman one day.
January is one of these months that for some it is a let down, You plan, anticipate the holidays, shop like crazy people then it's over. I admit this year I didn't have money for gifts. My son and I did not exchange.But the gift part wasn't important. What we did do however is promise to keep the lines of communication open between us. Things have always been positive in this area. He knows he can tell me anything I will not judge. Advise of course, give my opinion absolutely but the last thing we need when going through problems is to be judged. Personally I like January, it's like spring, everything is fresh and new. we go through various expectations, hope for the best. Some things we follow through other things.....not so much.
Last year I will say that I was in a what a friend calls a "Sucky" mood You go through this entire Cancer baloney, you have your Dr to fall back on every few weeks then you get the news you are in remission!! Now one would expect to feel great happy excited....WOW......I was more fearful than I should have been you become dependent on your caregivers... They hold the cards, they control the strings like a puppet....You go for your blood work, Wait anxiously for a reassurance you are fine, doing just "peachy" when that happens suddenly you are unprepared!! Now what? What do you mean exactly by come back in 6 months......But I'm supposed to come every 3? It is like a feeling of being abandoned by your doctor.He set you to go out in that world post cancer treatment All By Yourself!..BUT... I'm not going to worry about every minor bump bruise or feeling tired.Thinking cancer has come back elsewhere. I believe I have finally come to terms regarding my family. It is time to let go and I MEAN IT!! I am going to take a cake decorating course....learn to use Fondant.....I can now but it's time to advance my expertise....Above all, I am going to learn how to make the perfect flaky pie crust....As try as I have it ends up not being flaky but a hard mess that sticks to my rolling pin and ends up in the trash while I dig through the freezer for a ready made crust!
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I was flipping channels tonight and there was nothing worthwhile. Though I did watch Again, Eat Pray Love.....Somehow I can see myself in that situation. I guess to some extent I was. I walked away from a bad marriage, traveled through Africa, met someone, had a child with him. Coincidentally my son is 19 years old today!! He is a young man....He is going to be a good man for a good woman one day.
January is one of these months that for some it is a let down, You plan, anticipate the holidays, shop like crazy people then it's over. I admit this year I didn't have money for gifts. My son and I did not exchange.But the gift part wasn't important. What we did do however is promise to keep the lines of communication open between us. Things have always been positive in this area. He knows he can tell me anything I will not judge. Advise of course, give my opinion absolutely but the last thing we need when going through problems is to be judged.
Personally I like January, it's like spring, everything is fresh and new. we go through various expectations, hope for the best. Some things we follow through other things.....not so much.
Last year I will say that I was in a what a friend calls a "Sucky" mood You go through this entire Cancer baloney, you have your Dr to fall back on every few weeks then you get the news you are in remission!! Now one would expect to feel great happy excited....WOW......I was more fearful than I should have been you become dependent on your caregivers... They hold the cards, they control the strings like a puppet....You go for your blood work, Wait anxiously for a reassurance you are fine, doing just "peachy" when that happens suddenly you are unprepared!! Now what? What do you mean exactly by come back in 6 months......But I'm supposed to come every 3? It is like a feeling of being abandoned by your doctor.He set you to go out in that world post cancer treatment All By Yourself!..BUT... I'm not going to worry about every minor bump bruise or feeling tired.Thinking cancer has come back elsewhere. I believe I have finally come to terms regarding my family. It is time to let go and I MEAN IT!! I am going to take a cake decorating course....learn to use Fondant.....I can now but it's time to advance my expertise....Above all, I am going to learn how to make the perfect flaky pie crust....As try as I have it ends up not being flaky but a hard mess that sticks to my rolling pin and ends up in the trash while I dig through the freezer for a ready made crust!