My next chemo is scheduled for the 29th. So I thought I would just let the weekend flow, see where we end up. My son wanted to join a gym, he had been going to the YMCA but he found it overcrowded and of course when his friends were there too distracting. He is very serious about his health and outlook. I decided to let him try for a month or two, see how he does if he is enjoying it then we look into doing a membership..While there one of the trainers came over to talk with my. Guess the puffy face and scarf wrapped around my head was a dead give away I was doing chemo...He said to come in sometimes with my son and they would help me do some low impact nothing strenuous exercises and give me a muscle massage if I am in pain...Hmmm nice thought, certainly I appreciated the gesture.
Our next stop was the grocery store. "Super Store" It suddenly hit me like a lightening bolt that teenage boys who shop with their mothers ultimately grow up and will shop with their wives or S/O's!!!
We ended up in the small appliance dept. "Hey mom look " He found a blender with a spout..."you gotta get this this is way to cool to pass up" My response "We have a blender in fact it's a fairly new blender so getting this would be pointless..No I said...but mom....Look here's what I'm going to do, since it's the last one, how about I put it in the buggy that way you can think about it while you are shopping, remember mom it has a spout..ours doesn't."! No I did not buy the blender hahahaha however when I reached the check out i did have a poster of the Joker (Batman) along with a container filled with cashews.. It was too late he already let them go through. i can just see his future wife one day asking him to go on an errand.. He's liable to come with a Juicer instead of a bottle of juice only because it's more useful and think of the money they'll save!!
There was a Best Buy store in the mall, so we (rather he) decided we should go look at the television sets. Our big one died some time back so we have been watching my 21 inch from the bedroom. It's brand new I can see the picture just fine.... I don't need a huge screen..
I had already settled on a 32 inch LCD Toshiba they had. The picture was very clear and bright. The screen was bigger than the one we were currently using.. But wait!! He found another on sale, Mom come over here take a look, it was a 42 inch TV and the picture was beautiful. Why do they have to put these videos in that have such clarity in the movies? I kept saying nooooooo, he kept saying but think of the economics, your not spending that much more money and you are getting a bigger and better model just think how much clearer you can see Bold & Beautiful and don't forget mom the eyes are the first to go.....That was not winning me over...They delivered the new set today then I went out bought a surround sound system and stand for the TV the nearly cost as much as the TV......yup the 42 inch..... kid is a born salesman.
I find myself getting tired very quickly. I need the naps I take during the day to get me through the day. I wish my sleep pattern were different. Just to have one full night of sleep again. I have the ativan but to me it's more of a last resort because I just don't like taking pills. My body has more aches and pains on some days that I just wish it would give me a little break. Once again I am having the rotator cuff issue. . Every couple of weeks it seems to create a problem. Not that I intentionally lift anything heavy. With chemo just 3 days away I am doing my best to remain calm, preparing some extra food.....this period is always an emotional time for me. I never know what to expect, how I will react and I'm trying not to be such a cry baby. When my step dad calls me tries to give me his pep talk I can hear the break in his voice and it hurts me that he is upset. He's 81, I don't want him worrying about me. We had a good talk I reassured him that all is fine....and it will be.
My son wanted to join a gym, he had been going to the YMCA but he found it overcrowded and of course when his friends were there too distracting. He is very serious about his health and outlook. I decided to let him try for a month or two, see how he does if he is enjoying it then we look into doing a membership..While there one of the trainers came over to talk with my. Guess the puffy face and scarf wrapped around my head was a dead give away I was doing chemo...He said to come in sometimes with my son and they would help me do some low impact nothing strenuous exercises and give me a muscle massage if I am in pain...Hmmm nice thought, certainly I appreciated the gesture.
Our next stop was the grocery store. "Super Store" It suddenly hit me like a lightening bolt that teenage boys who shop with their mothers ultimately grow up and will shop with their wives or S/O's!!!
We ended up in the small appliance dept. "Hey mom look " He found a blender with a spout..."you gotta get this this is way to cool to pass up" My response "We have a blender in fact it's a fairly new blender so getting this would be pointless..No I said...but mom....Look here's what I'm going to do, since it's the last one, how about I put it in the buggy that way you can think about it while you are shopping, remember mom it has a spout..ours doesn't."!
No I did not buy the blender hahahaha however when I reached the check out i did have a poster of the Joker (Batman) along with a container filled with cashews.. It was too late he already let them go through. i can just see his future wife one day asking him to go on an errand.. He's liable to come with a Juicer instead of a bottle of juice only because it's more useful and think of the money they'll save!!
There was a Best Buy store in the mall, so we (rather he) decided we should go look at the television sets. Our big one died some time back so we have been watching my 21 inch from the bedroom. It's brand new I can see the picture just fine.... I don't need a huge screen..
I had already settled on a 32 inch LCD Toshiba they had. The picture was very clear and bright. The screen was bigger than the one we were currently using.. But wait!! He found another on sale, Mom come over here take a look, it was a 42 inch TV and the picture was beautiful. Why do they have to put these videos in that have such clarity in the movies? I kept saying nooooooo, he kept saying but think of the economics, your not spending that much more money and you are getting a bigger and better model just think how much clearer you can see Bold & Beautiful and don't forget mom the eyes are the first to go.....That was not winning me over...They delivered the new set today then I went out bought a surround sound system and stand for the TV the nearly cost as much as the TV......yup the 42 inch..... kid is a born salesman.
I find myself getting tired very quickly. I need the naps I take during the day to get me through the day. I wish my sleep pattern were different. Just to have one full night of sleep again. I have the ativan but to me it's more of a last resort because I just don't like taking pills. My body has more aches and pains on some days that I just wish it would give me a little break. Once again I am having the rotator cuff issue. . Every couple of weeks it seems to create a problem. Not that I intentionally lift anything heavy.
With chemo just 3 days away I am doing my best to remain calm, preparing some extra food.....this period is always an emotional time for me. I never know what to expect, how I will react and I'm trying not to be such a cry baby. When my step dad calls me tries to give me his pep talk I can hear the break in his voice and it hurts me that he is upset. He's 81, I don't want him worrying about me.
We had a good talk I reassured him that all is fine....and it will be.