I think I mentioned that before I left rehab they did a CT scan that showed swelling and so they put me back on the steroids. Well, I don't think the steroids are helping because my leg feels weaker, my arm feels weaker, I feel pressure up my back and in my head. I think if I still feel this way tomorrow I will call the doc, though I know my doc is going on vaca this week there will be a doc on call to replace him. They only have me on 1mg of the steroid so they may want to up it, which worries me. Why is it still swollen? Is this normal? Was it like this last time? I don't remember. And its affecting my ability to exercise and get my leg back. I couldn't do anything again today because my I am so tired from yesterday and because my head hurts, though I haven't taken much pain medication, like last week. I took some this morning and just a little while ago, I didn't take any this afternoon. I wanted to go out to the store today but to do that I need to go upstairs to get dressed and then come back downstairs and then go downstairs to the car and then go to the store and then come home and come back upstairs and then go upstairs at bed time, the thought of all that was too exhausting for me. Tomorrow I am going to make sure I am dressed before I come downstairs! My right leg and my sides are killing me from all the work they are doing coming up and down the stairs!
My left arm is weak again, this is scaring me too. I know that I need to think positive, but its hard when all this is happening. I am trying. I really wish I had a stronger faith, something that I truly believed in to help me get through all this. I understand the need for it and the comfort it must provide people who have it, unfortunately I don't and I feel that if I started praying now it would be wrong somehow, I had so much faith when all this first started but everything was taken from me I don't know what to believe any more and I have no one to talk to about it, no one to ask for guidance. All this is really making my head hurt! But the typing has been good for my left hand!
My left arm is weak again, this is scaring me too. I know that I need to think positive, but its hard when all this is happening. I am trying. I really wish I had a stronger faith, something that I truly believed in to help me get through all this. I understand the need for it and the comfort it must provide people who have it, unfortunately I don't and I feel that if I started praying now it would be wrong somehow, I had so much faith when all this first started but everything was taken from me I don't know what to believe any more and I have no one to talk to about it, no one to ask for guidance. All this is really making my head hurt! But the typing has been good for my left hand!