When Parkinson’s disease (or the ‘Little Monster‘ as I like to refer to it as) became a part of my life, along with it came what is known as Restless Leg Syndrome, or RLS for short.
RLS is a condition that can manifest itself in others who don’t necessarily also have Parkinson’s disease (PD). However, both groups – those with PD and those without – have the same response: it is absolutely annoying.
Restless Leg Syndrome (RLS) makes your legs tingly. RLS makes your legs jumpy. RLS can make your legs feel as if they are fire or someone is sticking needles in them. RLS can make you feel as though the insides of your legs are going to burst open and your nerves will jump right out – sort of like a sci-fi movie. Restless Leg Syndrome can do only one of the above, some of the above, or all of the above.
You can find yourself walking circles late into the night to get it to quit. You find yourself unable to sleep because it won’t stop. Some people who are on meds find themselves unable to tolerate this disease and dose themselves with extra medication prescribed for this irritable condition.
RLS reminds me of Psalm 37. Yes, it’s true. David is talking about being patient and trusting God. Patience and trust are opposites of restlessness, of being restless. When we are impatient and find it difficult to trust, we tend to take matters into our own hands and try to fix everything in our lives. David wasn’t restless (not here, anyhow). David learned a better way. He learned to trust and in doing so, he found rest.
At one point in his life as king, he wasn’t so trusting or patient. In fact, I’m not sure that he consulted God in regards to his sin with Bathsheba. I tend to think that for some reason, he may have thought he could hide his sin from God the way Eve tried to hide a half-eaten juicy apple.
However, David did learn a better way. The way of dwelling where he was at that moment – at any moment – and enjoy God there. Wherever he was, wherever he went, whatever he did – he was learning. Learning to trust. Learning to delight in God. Learning to rest.
David learned that in trusting he found rest. Rest leads to restoration and restoration led to joy. His focus once again became vertical – having a relationship with His creator – and ceased being horizontal – a relationship that was worldly.
Getting his relationship back in order took being still and waiting on God, a virtue quite opposite of being restless. He found the remedy in this was learning anew to trust his God. Trusting in a God who promises to give us the desires of our heart when we delight in Him and when God makes a promise, He never breaks His promise. He will do it. He can be counted on. Our part? To trust what He says and wait patiently, knowing that His timing may not coincide with ours. When restlessness ceases, peace increases. It is in that peace, in the rest, in the trusting and waiting patiently that we find joy. Isn’t that better?
Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37:3-7a NIV