Is it possible to pray for someone and not know that is who you are praying for? To ask God for just one person to understand? Someone to talk to? Someone to relate to? Someone to understand your pain and limitations? As we all know sometimes God answers our prayers with answers we are not pleased with but are for a reason. God has answered my prayer. I can't tell you the lonely times I have had laying in hospital beds, looking at doctors and hearing dreadful news. I for so long could not understand why I could not meet someone near me with hydro. I would stay up late at night going through different support boards thinking I can't be the only person in the world with this but it sure felt like it. So I have meet someone who does not have hydro but we can relate on many levels. It has done my heart good to have J in my life. I feel lucky to know him. I have a dear friend that enter heaven near Christmas of 1996 it has run through my mind if he whispered in God's ear that I really needed him in my life.