I know its been awhile since I've written, but like I said before, I am trying to stay out of my head. Not having work for this long and not knowing how long it will be until there is work is really getting to me. I started getting an ache in my jaw, like I was clenching my teeth constantly, it started during the day so it wasn't like I was grinding at night. It made it hard to fall asleep. My acupuncturist gave me, actually GAVE me because I have no money, some herbs to help relax me, she said they are like the herbal equivalent to xanax. They helped a lot! Unfortunately I don't have much more left and I still can't find the bottle of xanax that I have!
Recently it has come to my attention that the more I wear the ankle braces the more I need them. Makes sense. I don't wear the AFO much because it really hinders my progress, but if I need to carry heavy stuff I will wear it, but then after I take it off my foot seems even worse than it was. Weird. I'm wondering if its because I shouldn't be wearing it. I have started wearing the smaller brace for carrying stuff and I am doing very well with it. I also wore it today on the treadmill when I usually wear the AFO. At first my leg tenses up, but if I focus hard enough I am able to get it to relax and it is fine and stable with the smaller brace. Also today I played rockband and when I was done I was carrying the drums back to their spot. When I picked them up my foot tensed up and I couldn't move. I focused and made it relax and was able to carry it without having to put it down and take a break! This feels like a big breakthrough for me! I still have a long way to go, but I am getting closer!