Lots of stuff going on. Lots of activity. Lots of good things, and lots of fatigue to go with it. I’ve been stepping away to sleep for a half hour or so, around lunchtime, and it’s been helping. It’s hard to believe how tired I get…
Part of the tiredness comes from “anticipation fatigue” — getting ideas in my head about what’s going to happen, and then experiencing those things as though they have already happened. It’s a vice — only right now is actually real. I like to think I’m preparing myself, but what I’m really doing is avoiding what’s in front of me.
Anyway, I have a couple of big deadlines ahead of me over the coming week, and I’m getting a little anxious about them. Some of it is potentially life-changing stuff, which I could easily bail on, so I don’t have to contend with the anxiety and stress. But if I don’t follow through, how will I live with myself?
So, I try to keep steady and stay strong. And not get ahead of myself. Take things one at a time, and see where that leads me. It’s all good, really – it’s just a lot to do.
Keep the big picture in mind… but also tend to the little details.