Inspired and dedicated to Judy Hensley
I wish I could form words without someone thinking I was drunk
like saying, “Yes I do think” instead of “Yes I did thunk”.
I wish I could carry a glass with cold ice without shaking
and rattling so loud it sounded like a martini I was making.
I wish I could speak loudly so others didn’t say “Quit muttering”
I wish I could snap back and say, “Well then you quit your stuttering!”
I wish I could walk without dragging my feet
and stay in step with others instead of always feeling beat.
I wish I could not take pills to make me stand straight
oh my gosh - now that would be GREAT!
and almost trip when others I meet
I wish I could hold things without fear of them dropping
but am thankful I still can walk without always stopping
I wish the pain in my neck and back would disappear
But the stiffness just gets worse is what I hear
I wish brain surgery wasn’t in the future for me
but what is - is and what must be will be
I wish things were different for me
I wish the same for others with this thing called PD
but they’re not and that’s okay
for I’ve learned to be content anyway
I’ve got friends who live near and far
friends who know just who they are
some who understand and some that just care
walking with them I have learned to bear
oh how I thank God for all of it, you see
For without PD these things would not be
the friends, their concern, the many lessons learned
even when my heart’s been heavy, my hope has turned
to the One who’s never left me to walk unsteady
the One who stands faithful, true, protective and ready
oh my Jesus, how can I say how great You are
without tears falling from my face, captured in your jar
tears of fear, tears of pain
tears of weakness turning to strength in You I gain
how can I live one moment of my life
whether filled with smiles or filled with strife
I have seen purposes and plans
that could only have come through Your hands.
so I just want to say thank You
honor, praise and glory to You alone are due
I want to shout Great are You Lord Almighty
for loving, protecting, and carrying me.